Poems: old and new.

  • Having Already Voted

    Having Already Voted

    This is a still moment of creation Like they always are. You cannot tell me it wasn’t raining Out, a warm fire in an ancient cave, When someone more like me than I imagine Painted the hunt (which now was also still). It’s raining now, Has been all day like dusk, And my Chicago apartment,

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  • Werewolves & Other Shapeshifters

    Werewolves & Other Shapeshifters

    Once you’ve met one werewolf You know anyone might Contort and change. They say it’s always at the full moon, But when you grow up collecting silver bullets You learn different. And you know of other transformations, From more than just the story books. Chased, women turn to trees in fear, Or lose their shape,

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  • There is my heart

    There is my heart

    Head on the pillow. In front of the sink. Slipping on little black boots. Driving away, singing a song. Someplace dark Walking quickly Pretending not to hear Them call her faggot. And I’m not there To fight them off As if I could defend  Everything I love.  And my heart is also in California With

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Essays: attempting to make sense of it all.

  • Next Thing You Know

    Next Thing You Know

    I first heard Jordan Davis’ Next Thing You Know a few months after meeting my fiancée.  We were not engaged at the time, but certainly moving too fast.  We met in September, and by December, Nikki was sleeping at my place most nights.  She’d complained about the sorry state of my mattress two months in;

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  • Wolverine’s Nipples

    Wolverine’s Nipples

    The first time I realized I was a man I burst into tears.  I was in a Zoom therapy session and saw my face, just a few months on testosterone, and recognized myself in it for the first time.  I couldn’t be a man though. Non-binary I could reconcile with, but a MAN?  Through all

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  • Why Wolverine’s Nipples

    Why Wolverine’s Nipples

    Wolverine has nipples even though his bones are made of a special metal that does not exist in this universe, and even though he has had to regenerate his skin over and over. Being Wolverine is a lot like being Felix, he is a stronger, more reliable, and more passionate person since his transition into

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R&R: recommendations and reviews.

  • Favorite Reads: 2024

    Favorite Reads: 2024

    In no particular order…. drumroll please… Fiction When We Cease to Understand the World- Benjamín Labatut Hum- Helen Phillips Rejection- Tony Tulthimutte The Wall- Marlen Haushofer The Book of Form and Emptiness- Ruth Ozeki The Memory Police- Yōko Ogawa Monstrilio- Gerardo Sámano Córdova The Maniac- Benjamín Labatut The Overstory- Richard Powers Skyward series- Brandon Sanderson

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I love Felix-in-love poetry. It’s always so morbid.

-Alexandra Garfinkle

Felix Deiss’s essays are a journey into your past, your consciousness, and your soul. Heartbreaking and funny they are some of my favorite reads!

– Nikki Frank